Retrograde whining

I have mentioned many times how much I detest Mercury retrogrades and this one is certainly no exception. It has sucked big donkey balls! First, the refinance had to be completely redone. Then I have to deal with the ineptitude of the Dekalb County court system on Wednesday when trying to pay for my speeding ticket I got in July. None of the phone numbers have worked for the past 6 weeks, so I get to spend a couple of hours of MY DAY standing in line at the Court Reporters office being browbeaten by the bitch assed black women that work there. After all that, I get to PAY THEM $10 EXTRA for the "convenience" of paying by phone, despite having to go in person to get my ticket put in the goddamn system in order to pay it! Then the Ford dies in the driveway with a broken timing belt and some ruined tensioners to the tune of $800 or more. On top of all that, I've been feeling slightly ill for the past 3 days. I am not sure if it's strictly stress induced or if I'm fighting off a weak virus. All I know is that my stomach has been jittery and I'm very tired.

I suppose the good news is that we will close on the new refinance tomorrow afternoon, but since it's in the middle of this LOVELY Mercury retrograde, I'm concerned about the overall outcome of it. Feh! Sometimes you can't just stop your life because of an astrological event, but it still feels ominous when things have been sucky since the event started!

I'm SO over it I could just scream. I'm also feeling extremely fat and unattractive for this Con. I've not lost a single pound and my clothing choices have been severely curtailed because of my fat ass. My lifestyle has GOT to change. With my genetic disposition, I've got to get control of my body or I'll end up being 250# by the time I'm 40. My 5'4" frame can handle up to about 160#, but once I pass that, I start to look like I do now: fat face, double chin, beer gut, thunder thighs. My mother's a bitch, but she is right about my weight being out of control. I do think it's funny as hell, though, that since I got married in April, all of a sudden she's not concerned about it any more. I guess she figured my "settling down" was directly related to my weight or something equally as stupid. One thing's for certain: my weight is officially out of control and I must do something to stop it from it's inexorable increase. Too bad I've ignored it all summer so I get to be a fat cow at the con. What the hell is wrong with me??

That's enough whining for now. I need to do some work and it's not getting done with me having a whine-fest, is it? Off I go to do some much needed redesigning of the ID site. (yes, I'm STILL messing with that...)

Posted by Misangela at August 19, 2004 11:56 AM